curious, not creepy.


what the fuck is dharma?
May 24, 2010, 5:26 pm
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i don’t watch lost. i’ve never had a whole lot of interest in the show, i tried watching the first season, and about halfway through i just got kind of annoyed with the characters so i gave up. but i really like lost. or more so the idea of lost.

i love how many people are so into this show. that have watched every episode [probably multiple times] and have come up with theories as to what every little thing means. i overheard many of these yesterday while working the series finale event at the theater. and as someone who has no reference point as to what anything means, hearing things about smoke monsters, time travel and polar bears all sounds pretty ridiculous. and i can’t help but laugh. but it’s really awesome to see people get excited about something. legitimately excited and interested about something. and then to have a group of people to have to talk about it with makes it even better.

when the last five minutes were getting ready to start, pedro and i ran in to catch it and see if it was going to turn into a Dallas series finale. which was what i was hoping for. but as expected, we had no clue what the hell was going on. or what anything meant. but i enjoyed watching those 460 people watching these final moments of the show. everyone was so attentive, and the anticipation in the room was so high.

standing there made me think of my dad telling me about the series finale of M*A*S*H. that it was an really important moment in his personal history. and ultimately in television history too. though i’ve never watched either show in great depth, i can appreciate anything that creates that sense of community for so many people.

lost seems to be one of those shows that has brought back the ritualistic nature of television. and any show that can do that is pretty awesome in my book. and probably worth a second shot.



eggs and photograms.
October 21, 2009, 11:32 pm
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today i had my first day of teaching at the museum school for the visual arts. i was pretty convinced that it wasn’t going to happen, as our equipment situation was a total mess. but it all came together, and is fully functioning. 

after a mini-freakout at about 920 when i realized that i’d only bought film developer and no paper developer, and had to make a mad dash to jones it went well. the kids are awesome, and are totally into everything we’re doing.

i think that half the battle of being a teacher is having a group of students who don’t care and aren’t even willing to meet you half way. so, it’s nice that i can check that off my lists of worries.



You don’t look different, but you have changed.
October 5, 2009, 3:59 am
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i think this is pretty awesome.



end of the world.
September 10, 2009, 6:28 pm
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my internet was shut down for about the past 5 days, i had to steal it from my neighbor or venture out into the world to track it down. it’s weird to think how dependent we’ve become on it, not having it with ease was such a pain in the ass and lord knows if i don’t check the ol’ facebook the world was going to end. 

but anyways, probably the most annoying part of the whole ordeal was having to call the cox customer service line. why? because you get to talk to a robot woman. now, this sounds like it could be kind of rad in theory but in action it fucking sucks. you have to pick the correct general topic and then filter through them with her from there. and i know that her voice is supposed to be soothing and calming, but all i wanted to do was rip my hair out. especially since there is no return to main menu button or phrase or whatever. 

**HINT– if you’re on the phone with cox and just want to talk to a HUMAN interrupt her and say ‘customer service representative’ or scream ‘I JUST WANT TO TALK OT A FUCKING HUMAN’ and she’ll direct you to one immediately**

once she was actually helping me troubleshoot my internet i became kind of impressed with the whole thing. she could respond to my questions and reset my modem from wherever she is. it’s kind of cool that someone can program something to be so smart. but then i started getting creeped out about robots taking over the world and such. i’ve realized that i like the idea of robots because in my head they look like cute little objects like this:

or like this:

      

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

but what they’ll probably end up being like is this:

and i’m not the biggest fan of that idea. at all. 

moral of the story – we’re fucked.



cacti and sunsets.
August 14, 2009, 1:11 am
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i’m pretty over southwestern art.  



move over mlk.
June 26, 2009, 5:05 am
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there was a candle light vigil in the rose garden of reid park tonight in honor of michael jackson. we went to check it out and the whole time i had the same two thoughts running through my head. 

  1. how is it that we can rally for shit like this, but the stuff that actually matters we just sit on our asses and do nothing?
  2. these people are totally serious about this.

mj.

mj.

 

mj.

within the first 5 minutes of being there, we heard michael jackson get compared to the dali lama, louis farrakhan, and martin luther king. and apparently he had a greater affect on the world then any of them. why? because his music brought people together.

seriously?? how is he even on the same level as those guys??

i mean, yeah it sucks that he’s dead but personally i’m more bummed out about farrah fawcett. the burning bed was like my favorite movie when i was little. and as far as i know, he never had a lifetime movie…not yet anyways.

rip farrah fawcett



in love.
June 19, 2009, 6:21 am
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today i fell in love with someone i’ve known for quite some time now. i’ve always appreciated him, but never really understood what made him so special. 

until today.

there was something about seeing him in a different, unfamiliar space that made me look closer. or maybe it was just that it was seeing a new side of him, that i’d never really explored. 

circumnavigation of the blood. 

i think it was the juxtaposition between that image [circumnavigation of the blood] and this text taken from a lecture he gave:

i know now [and should have known earlier] that we are incapable of ever seeing anything new. consequently, we would never photograph anything unless we have become attentive to it because we already have a part of it within ourselves. as we go around we are only paying attention to those things which already have occupied us, or, better still, are so much a part of us that we lean into the next situation finding that we are already there.

oh, frederick sommer. where have you been all my life? you’re so much more then cut up pieces of butcher paper. how could i have neglected you for so long? and will you ever forgive me? i like to think he’ll let it slide.

i went to the scottsdale museum of contemporary art today and had a lovely evening with mr. sommer, and a new somebody i’ve been looking into, james turrell. his piece, knight rise, looks like this:

the photo doesn’t do it justice. i laid down on the bench that circles around the room and started up at the sky for 20 minutes. and it was amazing. the subtle color shifts of blues and whites was beautiful. and i can’t wait for his piece in the crater to open.

maybe phoenix isn’t all bad after all…